At the beginning of 2014, I made one of my yearly goals “going on an adventure.” I was thinking Hobbitishly. I wanted to go on a trip. Perhaps I would go to Michigan’s Upper Peninsula. Maybe I could go to Europe? I was going to Jamaica for a spring break mission trip, and that promised to be an adventure. All I knew was that I wanted an adventure.
And an adventure I got. I’ve blogged before about how I had my dream job and lost it earlier this year. 2014 was a very difficult year. In mid-May, I scrawled on my desk calendar, “Jesus, be real to me.” That became my daily prayer over the course of 2014.
That prayer didn’t make my life easier. It didn’t mean that God suddenly made these difficult circumstances (unemployment/underemployment, difficulties with insurance, emotional ramifications of the previous points) magically vanish. But I find myself becoming calmer, more peaceful. I had to be brave, which I didn’t particularly like. I had to be strong, which I can do, but I didn’t really want to. However, I’ve done these things. And I’ve felt peaceful in so doing.
My year was an adventure, and my adventure continues into 2015. But I’m moving forward with a feeling of peace and a belief that God will always be with me and will always provide for me.
For I know well the plans I have in mind for you—oracle of the Lord—plans for your welfare and not for woe, so as to give you a future of hope.